Thursday, March 14, 2013
Hey! I'm back. It's 3 years after my last post (2010).
I wanted to write something.
I feel bad, uncomfortable with the people here. These aren't what I expected when I made such important decision. I somehow regretted why I chose to leave my country. I would have done greatly and knowing and mixing with bunch of new friends if I was in my country right now. I thought I am brave, but I'm not. Everything here is hard for me. People, lectures, life styles etc. I just can't get used to it. However, this doesn't mean that I miss my country. Seriously, honestly there are no strong feelings of missing my country. The thing that matters is what if, what will, if I m in my country now. Will I be happier? Why should I torture myself, at all senses. I don't miss home, I don't miss friends.Maybe it's not a 100% true statement. The conflicting feeling makes me feel really bad.
I don't like here.
I don't miss home.
What do I want right now? At this moment?
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Monday, June 21, 2010
2010年6月20日
这一天，是父亲节。我不晓得家人为他庆祝了不。至少这一天是属于他的节日，父亲的节日。不管怎样，孩子们心中总有着感恩的心，感谢父亲把还在带到这个世界，感谢父亲的养育之恩。虽然孩子们不知道父亲将要离开了。
2010年6月21日
父亲没有对孩子说再见，就离开了，永远的离开了。孩子们应该很庆幸，能够为父亲庆祝最后一个父亲节。父亲也欣慰了。父亲抗癌的这段日子并不好过，父亲的坚强，是给孩子上的最后一堂课。看着2个只有12岁和15岁的孩子失去了父亲，眼眶有点泪光。谁也不能理解孩子们的心情，他们必须很勇敢的面对这个事实--父亲不会再回来了。他们已经没有叫声‘爸爸’的机会了。这位父亲，您安息吧！孩子，不要忘了父亲给你们的坚强！再苦再难熬的日子也会过去的。
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Thursday, June 17, 2010
BACK FROM LAGOON!
Happy belated birthday LULU!
Happy exciting day in lagoon!
Happy eating in Gasoline!
Happy happy with LEMON!
Yesh. Today we celebrated LULU's 17 in Sunway Lagoon and then in Gasoline. I sent her this message when I reached home. But she said me beh hiao ba =( Well I dont mind as long as she feels warm when she reads this message. She is a best friend of mine. Although we actually have the same topics and craps for these 2 years, but I feel comfortable when be with her. Happy birthday LULU!
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Thursday, May 13, 2010
Internet line's finally back! I was so excited because I wanna upload photos we took during Thomas cup, especially Lin Dan aka superdan! Believe me, Lin Dan is super fair compare to his photo shoot. He is so muscular and fit! I am now "addicted" to him. I love the way he plays badminton. SPEED and MIND! Just like his nickname, his speed is SUPER fast, he too can peace his mind down to look for his opponent's mistakes and make them his advantages in the match. I was totally into the game when he verses Park Sung-hwan. The game was so excited and finally Lin Dan won with 21-18 25-23. This will be my memorable experience to watch badminton matches LIVE in stadium!
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Wednesday, May 5, 2010
''Tired''.
This is the term that keep on appearing in my mind. Usually we get to hear tired from adults or those who are working, but i scream for tired although I'm just a student. I'm really tired. Lack of sleeping hours, lack or resting time make me feel so. Physically I felt so tired after a 7km marathon. THIS WILL NOT HAPPEN last time, I remembered I was still energetic after every runs, but now? I feel muscles paining and feel like sit down quietly to have a good rest. Mentally, my mind is so tired that I don feel like doing anything. I preferred starring anything, even my papers for hours. I no longer have the energy or motivated to study. I sleep and sleep but I just feel that these sleeping hours doesn't help. What can I do?
I need motivation and refreshment!!!!!!!!!! Otherwise I cant continue my journey. I knew I still have a long journey to go. I cant stop it half way. RELAXATION! This is what I dream for. My hope and dream will never allow me to enjoy the term ''relax''. Perhaps for adults, a teenager is always ready for challenges and never claim to be tired. But as a teenager, i SCREAMED for tired!!!!!!!
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Saturday, February 20, 2010
I can do nothing regarding your choice.
You hurtled us.
Sorry for not forgiving you.
I don hate you.
I don support you.
I'm now feeling-less towards you.
I lose my direction now.
My heart is broken.
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Friday, January 8, 2010
I'm back to school. Conclusion is, I'm super duper tired! As usual, our class is so special. Last year our class was in the room of mirror while this year we are in bilik ceramah--room of dust! That room is full of dust. When the fan is rotating, you can see the dust is ''flowing''. I'm wondering will the dust 'falls' itself (?) I missed my teachers last year, maths teacher-Mr LIM KONG YEW! english teacher-Cik SITI! chinese teacher-Pn PANG! and my class teacher-Pn ESAH! Honestly, I prefer last year teachers more. Pn Pang! I miss you~ err..4s1 miss you! It will be great if you're teaching us this year. Though your voice sometimes make me sleepy but really hope you can be with us throughout this final year in kwang hua. I'm form 5 this year(!) !=happy? or excited? or sad? 3 words in mandarin. she bu de. I've been in this school for 4 years more. When I was in form1, people said I look so nerd. Form2, my only long hair year. Form3, I hate my class. Form4, get to know my classmates more. And now I'm form5.Thousands of days in this school. ~~This topic may written few months later, when i gonna graduate..
Back to these 5 days. Everyone is still in their holiday mood, same as I. I'm so lazy to wake up every morning and I hate 6.45am because my alarm will be snoozing! It is so so so irritating. But I still have to force myself to wake up. I have to shout to my mind,''wake up! wakeeeeee upp!!!'' I wish I could pretend to be overslept. As usual, wahaha! Sleeping in the class will be my 2nd session after waking up from my bed. I think it's my habit to sleep at least one time in class daily. Normally, language class will be my victims.I love Thursday and Friday because class ended at 1pm.Schooling session is tiring! I miss my holidayssss~! My Kitkat time!
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